Personal style, fashion,self expression and yapping session

When l was about 11 l was obssed with j-fashion, l would research everyday,and cry because l didnt had money to imitate i remember going for school one day with pants and dress and my sister yelling at me to not embaresses her in front of her friends, either way l did, nobody said nothing against, for l moment l felt like a star. During the pandemic back when l was 16-17, me and my friends started to see each other again every 3 weeks with presencial classses, l everyday l made sure to wear my best outfit, my mom got crazy almost begging for me to not waste my good clothes just to go to school, looking back the outfits were ideed ugly, but it wasnt about looking pretty, l wanted to express myself. So back in 2021 l had a fashion blog in twitte was fine but l startered to get bored of mainting it, l never had many followers also l started college back in 2022 so l stoped having time to care enough about my blog and by the same time l stopped caring about dressing up because well, l was stucked in my home and l only went out to buy groceries. and then BOOM 2023 my life had a new click again when l stared to work l had to go out, also by the end of the pandemic concerts stared to happen again and l came back to have a personality, l made new friends, l learned how to do my makeup better and l was feeling like myself again so l staredto notice again that my peronal style was a reflexion about the way l felt about life, so l started to remember my google drive books of fashion books and spending hours trying to find more fashion stuff to study about,but it only had a problem, l stared to notice that 1 - im broke 2 - i wasnt at all having a personal style i mean, l was imitating every new aesthetic,and thats not exacly a problem, l was a teenager, it still the way l perceive myself,at the same time i tought l was soooooo diferent from everyone else and thats no true, and thats also ok. Theres people that seek for individuality in a way that they might start to look as any other person because both goes for same references, and theres people thats jus follow the wave people they dont have a personality.Finding your own style is more dificult that it looks, its expensive, if you need to work you can dress the exacly way you want because your boss wont let, so in any way expresing yourself even if you want to try diferent things its hard and even elits. so looking back, now that im 21, got a home office job and still obssed with fashion,l would say that my personal style is symple,not very creative as l wished,but it brings out my inner child,and thats matter. After all l dont want to go out everyday to express myself, l just like to dress in the way l feel,mixed with the way my 16 year old would imagined how l would look as an adult. this page still under construction, l will post reviews,opnions and yapping text about fashion and pop culture,hope you guys like it last upt:26/02

Studies

05/03/2025

Updates:

  • went no nmixx concert
  • eated the best pork ribs ever

L always studied hard, since l was a kid my mom made sure l would have the best education L has been never rich, but also my family had enough conditions so l could at least study in a great public school and have english classes during my childhood. When l was in my teens l studied in the best school of my town by exams, everyone was proud of me and l was so happy too and then... it was the first time l discovered l was so fucking dumb,l couldnt keep up with the classes and subjects l never had before and then l discovered abou the importance of self esteem not only about looks but also about inteligence, theres a study that says that it exist 8types of inteligence

  • Linguistic inteligence
  • Logical-mathematical intelligence
  • spartial intelligence
  • Musical intelligence
  • Bodily and kinesthetic intelligenc
  • Intrapersonal intelligence
  • Interpersonal intelligence
  • Emotional intelligence

not to victimized myself because l also think that hard work and studying will make you succed but this is a process, and in a class of 30 kids no one would hold my hand, my class was so diverse that l was studying with people whoose math teachers never appeared to class and welthy kids that used to go travel during vacations, so many diferent kids from diferent places stuck in the same class, no all of us would learn that fast about all subjects may some things were so easy to me, but so hard to my other classmates. When l started to work in a place with teens and adults around my age, we needed to make presentations all the time, it was so easy for me, l did that all the time during high school, lm a great public speaker, but not everyone is, even the most extroverts one, but now l was that someone to hold those teens hands and explain how to do.

boredom

22/03/2025

life Updates: i had a exam,l went out many times

not be a boomer,but l feel that nowdays things have been too boring,we do have nice superstars but they feel niched,tv shows take years to be made, music is being cartered for tiktok, concerts are too expensive, and life is chaos worldwide, we are seeing things getting complicated everywhere. Maybe is the fact that now that i´m a adult l already have this old hag mindset,i mean when i was a kid i wasn´t paying attention on the world, i was busy playing dress up games, maybe is because now i do have concient about lie itself, at the same that,i think that the wester fashion is becaming boring and people are scared to be persued as "weird" or "cringe", not only that but the conservadorism and misoginy makes people change they perception on happiness and enjoying life, in a way that many things in the wests is becaming boring